what i get

why keep on lying when your not mean what you are
what u get?

nak sangat menang hambik hambik
aku kasi ko menang.
julang sampai ke langit
sembah la kemenangan tu.

puas?
no regret at all apa yang ko buat.
sampai satu saat ko kena ngadap
mintak maap
berlutut menyembah.

sampai satu tahap tu baru ko sedar kuasa
Allah tu maha besar.

Allahuakbar.

darjah 6

"Awang mana kad laporan?
Diam--
"Belom sign lagi cikgu."

Muka cikgu dah macam harimau. Sikit masa lagi dah bole muntahkan kata-kata berbisa dia.
satu kelas diam.

KENAPA TAK SIGN LAGI?
Habisla cikgu dah naik setan.

Terketar-ketar Awang menjawab.
"Bapak demam panas cikgu."

"TAKKAN DEMAM PANAS TAK BOLE NAK SIGN!"
suara cikgu matematik itu memetir

waktu tu cikgu rasa alasan awang langsung tidak munasabah.
waktu itu darjah 6
waktu itu guru kelas kami cikgu matematik yang garang macam singa.
yang mana kalau dia jerit bagai jatung dekat atas langit kau dekat bawah.

bertapa takutnya kami pada cikgu matematik.
guru kelas kami.

dan kini aku masih teringat-ingat waktu itu
sebab waktu itu, buat aku teringat kepada arwah bapak awang yang sakit demam panas.

butthurt

i having a difficult time on this month.

much on feeling.

for sure i'm not recovery any of yet.

but Alhamdulillah. 

there is reason behind of this.

I belive of any ujian yang Allah berikan kepada aku untuk aku jadi lebih tabah.

Sebab aku leka dan lalai, 

So Dia remindkan aku dengan cara ini.

Balik kepada Dia.

Gap--

Friend? 

Lets just be a friend. 

A friend what friend should be. 

No heart feeling;

no feeling on him. 

crack give up

rini aku p hiking kat bukit jambul.
semput.
stamina aku out.

memang rasa nak give up and balik
tapi aku gagah jugak.

seperti dengan langkah yang aku buat harini.
watever its take aku kena gagah.

sand whispering

when we took a step to move on,
u should be tough to not move backward

should i just follow the flow;

when u know all your assumption is right.
with all the calculation 99% that your heart will broken into pieces of glasses
yet it really need a time to recovery again.
trust is no longer with them--
not at all.

are you ready to be broken heart--
again?

i was thought it will be the last one.
but no.
he maybe one of them that will broke the heart.

whatever its take,
i will go slowly. just how we started at a first time.
with no sign at all.

goodbye.

Burden

Maybe when the factor a burden gone--

*snap the hand

Tadaa the problem will settle.

Maybe i'm the causes of burden.

Time

Truly to be told that i really want to u stay by side

now and till jannah. 

please, 

just me and let me be in that. 

please--

from my weirdo dream. 

Ah this kind of feeling keep blend and mix together--

Pengang dada. Why its hurt me again?